Friday, September 24, 2010

You.


Rage burned itself out in the face of Your patient wait. Anger dissipated when You held me as I ranted. You let my tears fall unchecked as I sobbed out my anguish. You allowed me to voice my fears and all my psychobabble. Then You picked me up and held me till I stopped shaking. 

You led me outside and showed me what I had been missing all along. Skies so blue they hurt my eyes. Storm clouds gathering on the horizon as their sister clouds lazily drifted over my head. Mountains spread out as far as the eye can see. When night fell, I tried to count the stars but they just kept multiplying before my eyes. The full moon bathed me in its light as the first raindrops fell on my face. "How could You not know that I love you?" You said. "I made all these for you".

You led me inside and sat me in front of the mirror. You traced the crow's feet around my eyes. "For all the times you  laughed, and made someone laugh with you". The calluses on my fingers. "For all the times you helped someone". The faint tracks of tears on my face. "For all the times you forgot yourself and thought about someone else's pain". My shoulders. "For all the times you helped shoulder someone else's burdens".
"For all those I love you", You said.

Then You touched my mouth. "For all the times you've deliberately said something to hurt someone". The scar on my hand. "For all the scars you've left on others". And then my heart. "For all the hate and the pride it holds. For all its fickleness and its inconstancy. For its unthinking selfishness. For its wantonness. For its rage. For its rampant disregard for others". 
"And yet I still love you", You said. 

And because You love me, all the good and the bad, and because You show me that love every single day, I love You back with all the love that this imperfect heart is capable of.

8 comments:

illusionaire said...

Amen...

jay-me said...

eh eh eh ka sethiam ta mai lolzzz come on lift the veil and shout it to the world "Im born-again" Seriously, Im happy for you...there's so much to wash out...from me and our society as a whole...we need you \0/ \0/ \0/

Mimihrahsel said...

hey kuks.. read this post earlier, but i wasnt sure which "you" you were talkin about :D but from above comments, now i can say.. Amen :) Happy for ya :)

illusionaire said...

@ Mimz: Hey sistah... learn from your friend here. Learn.

ku2 said...

@Jayme: Im no reformer- spiritual or otherwise :P Just someone who's fallen in love again and tries to show that love the best way I can.

@Mims: Caps Y, mate :D Though the "you" can be misleading, I havta agree. Thanks girl.

@Illu: Eh. Mim's experienced this a lot earlier than I have, methinks.

illusionaire said...

hehe... yeah... she's a "regular customer". :D :D :D

jay-me said...

Ku's blog is now our parlour????

illusionaire said...

Feeling jealous are you????